What the hell? What wrong had I done to deserve those messages? Why some people just cannot see things in another perspective? I admit that I didn't do what I MUST do, but I did all the preparations already and I tried my best, didn't I? Sometimes, people really don't know where to get those courage. And using force isn't going to get me anywhere. Why? Just because of this simple sentence: "Love cannot be forced." I mean, can you really get happiness if you are forced to love someone? Probably not, seriously. I don't know whether is it just because of my case that made someone so fucked up. But if it is really because of me, I'm really sorry. I really cannot do it. You may think that rushing with time is going to bring me to her, but I may not think so. You know something? Sometimes its time which create the ambience. And for that ambience to come, waiting for it is the best solution. If you were in my shoes, you surely know how a first-timer feel. The fear of this and that which any exprienced people would go through. So please listen the feelings of this zero-exprience guy. Sometimes, I do think that all this feelings came at the wrong moment. Is this why I had caused friction between you and me? Should I have never told anybody that I like somebody? Should I, in the first place shouldn't have feelings for her? Should I restrain myself from her? Ai4 ni3 shi4 cuo4 de4 ma1? Xin1 hao3 ruan4...